Off to a good start

Weight: 268 YEAH!

I always get lazy right at first. Anytime I drastically change my eating habits, I lose weight. So I am thrilled that I did lose two pounds. But I start to get a little lazy and thinking oh this is easy, I can do this. BUT it will take just as much willpower today as it did yesterday! I have a dessert party tonight. So I have to be really strong today, so I feel like I can have a bite or two. I think I down about how much effort has to go into thinking about every bite I put into my mouth. Does this lifestyle ever become habit?

Baby Steps

Weight: 270

I realized this morning that I have hard time taking baby steps. I have this idea that when I begin lifestyle changes they have to happen all at once. I want to wake up and be that early morning runner who naturally eats healthy. Reality: That is just not me today! So today and for the next few days I want to take baby steps. Today I want to make a few smart choices. Goal for today: Stay under 1600 calories.

Today begins a lifelong journey

How can a lifelong journey begin today? I have always struggled with my weight, healthy eating habits, and exercising. I have been up and down on the scale so many times I am surprised it hasn't broken. I have gone through so many wardrobes as my weight has fluctuated. As of today, I am at my heaviest. I am an emotional eater. Right now in life I know I am choosing food as my comfort. As there are some things in life that are hard right now, I am choosing secret indulgences of food. I am tired of this. But I really don't feel like I have the strength to change either. I have moments where I want so bad to where skinny jeans and cute this tees. But some how those moments don't override when I am in grocery store.

Today is the day! I am documenting this journey that began a long time ago, but feels like it is starting today. I am always encouraged by reading other people's stories, so I hope that this will encourage someone out there. I also need to accountability. I want to track my pitfalls and successes.

It's almost 10:00 on a Tuesday night. I am not sure what is in store for me tomorrow, but I will let you know!